When answers are difficult to find and uncertainty feels overwhelming, people often look for guidance in different ways. This journal explores a season of my life when faith, prayer, dreams, and intuition provided comfort, direction, and a sense of peace during one of the most difficult chapters of my journey.
There are seasons in life when facts alone do not provide all the answers.
During some of the most difficult years of my marriage, there were countless questions I could not answer. I didn't know what would happen next. I didn't know how things would end. I didn't know what decisions I would eventually need to make.
What I did know was that I needed guidance.
As my world became increasingly uncertain, my faith became one of the few constants I could hold onto. During that time, I experienced a series of dreams and impressions that brought clarity, comfort, and direction when I needed it most.
Whether someone views dreams as spiritual experiences, intuition, personal reflection, or something else entirely, they became meaningful guideposts during a season when I was desperately searching for answers.
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As the problems in my marriage continued to grow, I spent more and more time in prayer. There were things I couldn't fully explain, concerns I couldn't seem to put into words, and a growing sense that something significant was happening beneath the surface. I kept asking God for wisdom, protection, and understanding. During that season, God began speaking to me through a series of vivid dreams.
The first dream remains one of the most powerful experiences of my life. In the dream, I walked downstairs into our basement looking for my husband, much like I had done so many times in real life while trying to find him, reach him, or understand him. The basement was dark. Bodies covered the floor, lying motionless as if asleep, yet the atmosphere felt heavy and unsettling. As I looked up, I saw my husband standing at the top of the stairs. His presence carried a darkness that was impossible to ignore. Then he raised his hand as though he intended to strike me.
Before he could reach me, he was suddenly pulled backward down the stairs by a force far greater than himself. His appearance changed. His skin became gray. The words coming from his mouth were no longer understandable. He swung his arms wildly, fighting against something I could not see. I woke up immediately and went to God in prayer. What I received was not confusion, but clarity. I believed God was warning me and preparing me for what was coming. The message I received was clear: "Your husband is coming after you. He is coming for you. But before I allow him to lay a hand on you, I will snatch him down so fast he won't know what hit him." I did not fully understand how those words would unfold in my life, but I trusted them completely.
The dreams continued. Later that year, I began dreaming about snakes. In the dreams, they moved quickly through our home, chasing me while ignoring everyone else. They never caught me, but I always knew they were there. What made those dreams even more unsettling was that not long afterward I began finding actual snakes in our yard. The symbolism felt impossible to ignore.
In one dream, a man stepped forward and crushed the snake beneath his feet. When I woke up, I found myself wondering who he represented. Was it one of my brothers? My son? Someone God would send to help? Later that same day, I watched The Passion of the Christ. During the opening scene, Jesus crushed the serpent beneath His foot. I froze. In that moment, I knew exactly what God had been showing me.
It had been Jesus all along.
Not long afterward, my son came to me and shared a dream of his own. Neither of us had discussed our dreams beforehand. In his dream, his father was climbing the basement stairs. His appearance shifted between his normal self and something much darker. He reached toward my son calling out for help, yet my son sensed that what was reaching for him wasn't truly seeking help at all. Then, just as in my dream, his father fell backward down the stairs.
The similarities were too specific to dismiss. For me, it became confirmation that God was revealing truths about what was happening inside our home long before I fully understood them in my waking life.
The dreams continued. One night, I dreamed that our house was on fire. Flames surrounded the structure and everything about the scene suggested destruction. Yet the house itself was never consumed. When I prayed about the dream, I believed God reminded me of the burning bush in Scripture. The message I received was simple: "There are problems in this house, but it is not consumed. I am with you."
So I stayed. I endured. I kept praying.
Eventually, another dream brought a different message. The season of enduring was coming to an end. The season of leaving was beginning. That summer, shortly after taking my son out to celebrate his birthday, I had another dream. In the dream, a woman pointed at our family and shouted:
"Wow! What a Kingdom of Heaven ransom!"
I woke up confused. Days passed without answers. Then one morning, I felt led to read Deuteronomy 7. I had never spent much time studying Deuteronomy, yet as I read, it felt as though the pages were speaking directly into my circumstances. The promises, warnings, and instructions seemed deeply personal.
Soon afterward, I was led to Leviticus 26, and the message was remarkably similar. For me, the connection was undeniable. It felt as though God had been preparing me for years and was now confirming what I needed to do. For the first time, everything came together. I had endured years of confusion, betrayal, spiritual warfare, and heartbreak. I had carried burdens I was never meant to carry alone. And I believed God was telling me it was time to leave.
At that point, I didn't have the money to start over. My credit had been damaged. My future felt uncertain. But I trusted what God had shown me.
I contacted a real estate agent and soon found a townhouse that felt like a gift. It was the right size, in the right location, at exactly the right time. One Scripture stayed with me throughout that transition: "Wherever your feet shall tread, I have given it to you."
And for the first time in a very long time, my feet were moving toward freedom.
I thought I was searching for certainty. In reality, God was teaching me to trust Him one step at a time and helping me rebuild trust in the discernment He had given me.
Clarity often arrives gradually. Looking back, I can see how God was preparing me long before I understood the full picture.
I wanted certainty, answers, and reassurance that everything would somehow work out. Instead, God gave me guidance one step at a time and taught me to walk by faith.
"Pay attention to what God continues to place in front of you. Sometimes the answers come through scripture, prayer, dreams, and confirmation that unfolds over time."
A short reflection inspired by this journal entry.
Not every answer arrived when I wanted it to. But looking back, I can see that God's guidance arrived exactly when I needed it to.
— Toy, Creator of Behind Closed Doors™
When life feels unstable, people naturally search for understanding and direction. That search often becomes part of the healing process.
Periods of uncertainty often lead people to search for meaning, direction, and reassurance. For many survivors, faith becomes a source of strength, stability, and hope. While everyone's journey is different, moments of guidance can provide clarity during seasons when life feels overwhelming.
When life feels unstable, people naturally search for understanding and direction. That search often becomes part of the healing process.
Many survivors describe sensing that something was wrong long before they had proof. Learning to trust that awareness can be an important part of recovery.
Faith can provide stability during seasons of fear, confusion, and transition, helping people continue moving forward when the future feels uncertain.
Important realizations rarely arrive all at once. Understanding often develops gradually through experience, prayer, reflection, and time.
When life feels unstable, people naturally search for understanding and direction. That search often becomes part of the healing process.
Think about experiences, conversations, scripture, prayer, or moments that helped you gain clarity during a difficult season.
Consider the people, beliefs, practices, or experiences that provide support during challenging times.
Looking back, what signs were present that you may not have fully trusted at the time?
Reflect on the experiences that have helped you become more confident in your discernment and decision-making.
Periods of uncertainty can be emotionally exhausting. When answers are limited and the future feels unclear, people often need sources of hope, guidance, and reassurance to help them keep moving forward.
Understanding how individuals seek and find guidance helps foster compassion for the many different ways people navigate difficult seasons. For me, that guidance came through faith, prayer, dreams, scripture, and spiritual confirmation. For others, it may come through different experiences. What matters is recognizing the importance of hope, discernment, and remaining open to the guidance that helps us move forward.
Sometimes clarity arrives gradually. Sometimes it arrives unexpectedly. Either way, it often arrives when we are finally ready to receive it.
"Guidance doesn't always remove uncertainty. Sometimes it simply gives us the courage to take the next step." 💜
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